Nick Cordero’s widow Amanda Kloots has revealed she is ready to start therapy so she can address the trauma of his death last year.
The Broadway star died on July 5 aged 41 after suffering severe complications following infection of the coronavirus.
The Talk co-host Amanda took to Instagram Stories on Sunday to reveal how she was trying to move forward after the devastation she faced last year.
In a lengthy post, she wrote: ‘New Years has been tough, extremely hard for me. I’ve cried more recently than in awhile.
‘I thought Christmas would be hard, this was worse. I think it’s because when a new year comes you want a clean slate or to forget about last year, esp 2020.’
The 38-year-old continued: ‘But, I can’t forget about last year and will not be able to wipe the slate clean. I also think I’m slightly scared of what can happen in a year, how much things can change.
‘Lastly, I think everything I went through is catching up to me and I am finally ready to go to therapy to address the trauma.’
She added: ‘I share all of this as my continued honesty about grief and loss.’
Amanda also urged people to ‘be honest’ because ‘acknowledging all of this instead of hiding it has helped me. I hope it helps you.’
The theatre actress looked visibly emotional as she took to her Instagram Stories to discuss getting Nick’s ashes from the funeral parlour.
‘It was beyond surreal and horrible,’ Amanda said.
‘But they’re in my possession and a good friend of mine said some beautiful advice – “Look at it as you have him with you now”. Which is really a nice way of looking at it.’
The fitness entrepreneur added that she’s been leaning on her relatives to help cope with her grief.
‘I’ve literally felt like I can’t even function. Where I’m just kind of in a fog and I don’t even know what I’m doing or what I’m saying,’ Amanda said.
‘Thank God for my brother and sister-in-law because they’ve rescued me and Elvis a lot.’
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